||[22 Mar 2006|05:57pm]
If you are reading this, please add me back on my new journal, 45h13y. Thanks!
||[07 Mar 2006|09:32pm]
So tonight is my sister's last night in Florida.
Her last night being down the hall from me.
I tried so hard not to cry but now I can't help myself from crying.
I was reading old journal entries on her journal from 2003/2004 and it made me miss her already.
I miss us being super close, when she was 15 & we both lived with my dad.
I miss us talking on AIM, yet being in the same house.
I miss witnessing her fall in love for the first time.
I miss being her shoulder to cry on.
I miss us planning to run away from our parents together.
I miss staying up on FTJ all night on the forums.
I miss us being best friends with Stephanie & Dayna.
I miss when all we had was internet friends.
I miss us going to Tisha's house just to take pictures of ourselves.
I miss us being "goth" and "emo" etc together (going through phases.)
I miss watching all of the Halloween movies at Robert's house when we lived on the island.
I miss walking to the shopette with her late at night and renting movies & getting junk food when we lived in Germany.
I miss going in her room to sleep because I was scared (& I was 13!)
I miss sharing a room.
I miss her going to my spelling bees.
I miss helping her get ready for school.
I miss walking her to school.
I miss playing on the playground for 12 hours a day.
I miss knowing that I had a sister on the way..
There's only us
There's only this ...
Forget regret or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today.
I know that sisters fight and sisters lose closeness, I haven't forgotten the way I treated my sister last year but god damnit if I could taking ANYTHING IN THE FUCKING WORLD BACK, I would take that back. I'm crying my fucking eyes out. I don't want Hayley or Ricki to see me like this.